Rape :S

Hello there again people (:
I'm so bored right now.. I'm also very stressed.. A lot of stuff is going thru my brain.. like my rape,my surgery that's coming up. & you know normal life situations.I decided that I'm going to open up a lot in this blog.. so here I go (:
When I was 6 years old I was raped by my cousin.He lived here for a bit like 2 or 3 years.We were really close. He was 15 when he raped me. & when I say rape I mean full on intercourse. He's about 22 n0w.Everytime I see him I want to go up to him and literally stab the fudge out of him! I get so angry. The good thing is that I only see him in Mexico. & I dnt go to Mexico that much.It took me years to tell my family what had happened.. I believe because I took so long to tell them, I completely turned suicidal.. It was crazy for me to be like that. So if you've gone thru this tell an adult you trust immedietly..Seriously you might be scared that the person might hurt you but they won't .. My cousin looked me straight in the eye and told me that he'll kill me if I say a word.So take a chance & say everything you have to say. Get therapy. Maybe even start a blog like me to take out your feelings. Well if you need advice or if you want me to write about anything I'll do it.. jus e-mail me at theblogger94@hotmail.com .